Union Of Sorts

It was a night of separation
Weary I was coz something lacked in my preparation
What would I say or would I simply cry
To keep up a happy face, I would genuinely try
Lost in these thoughts, I reached my destination
The embrace that followed, was from my thoughts, an aberration
The embrace was careless but close
And surprised I was to find that nature had its own musical flows
The swaying trees, the hushing leaves and a warm winter breeze
Then, suddenly on my forehead, appeared a crease
Coz the magic of this reality, I couldn’t understand
Our hearts had begun a rhythmic dance in a ballroom so grand
They were taking chances to speak though silent we were
Mesmerized at their discipline and easy recognition of each other
Beat for beat, a language of their own
It seemed, already fond of each other, they had grown
The depth of this relation seeped into me at last
The embrace grew closer and our hearts started talking real fast
The faint streetlights made of us ‘one shadow’
Even the darkness of the night couldn’t conceal its glow
Amidst crackling of leaves, it seemed that nature had conspired this fate
And neither of us initiated the separation though both were running late
After a few minutes, reality dawned on us
And the spell was broken without much fuss
Staring in the faint light at each others half highlighted face
Twinkling eyes and bright smiles there were, even in this dark place
Sadness was at bay, coz separation this was not
This was the beginning of a union that destiny had sought……..

Suchita………a

White Rose

Bright sunny mornings of the first days of spring
When freshly awaken yellow roses, for me, he would bring
I would turn my face and cringe my nose
Oblivious of the fact that in due course, we would be so close
Days, weeks and months passed but his patience he kept
And I, thinking how beautiful things could be, silently wept
Because I knew ultimately, how sad would be the end
That would, only dismay to his life, lend
Everyday for me, he would miss his bus
And evoked hopes of the possibility of an ‘us’
Sinewy, brilliant smile, seemed totally uncouth
The pretence of indifference ended coz my eyes spoke out the truth
To the yellow roses, we raised a toast
But it was the white ones that scared me the most
That was the first time we spoke
And all barriers of fear, I broke
A bunch of pink roses in hand, he said “a new beginning they mark”
In the friendship that ensued, each one of those worked like a spark
Earlier every minute, the ultimate truth of my life, I had to face
But now time would fly, without a trace
Laugh we would, all day long
Life seemed like a never ending melodious song
The pink roses I began to adore
Coz they brought to my life happiness galore
And ensured that my fear of the white rose grew more and more
A moonlit night it was, the stars were smiling at us
But his expression was tense, even in a situation like this, free of all fuss
Smiling I was, my forehead free from any crease
Just when with a bunch of red roses in one hand, he went down on his knees
Emotions took the form of tears
Coz along with happiness came the culmination of the worst of my fears
I had to tell him why I was scared of the white
But this was a dream come true, beautiful enough to make my last days bright
The truth had to be faced
To lessen the pain, I ensured, with minor details it wasn’t laced
I said “my heart had a knot”
In the given situation he said” that’s all you got”
“When all the blood in my body seems to clot”
I forgot everything in the kiss that followed
And he was still unaware of the bitter destiny that I had unwillingly swallowed
The knots played naughty later that night
I called him up and said “maybe it’s time for some white”
My last moments I spent in his arms
Possessed by the magic of his charms
His eyes conveyed his shock but he didn’t cry
Till the last moment he urged me to try
Now I’m up here in the sky, smiling coz he puts up a front only describable as brave
And continues to ensure that mine is not white but the most colorful grave……


Suchita…….

A Suicide Note

I loved him a lot but the affection was clearly not mutual
And every time I tried, his retreat was brutal
His complex nature confused me but I played along
Still he destroyed my dreams unfailingly with his bitter song
A virtual paradise, for us, I had built
But he stomped on it, with his toxic intentions, without guilt
Determined I was coz optimism was my strength
But that notion was broken with his indifference for a period of infinite length
On the surface, he looked like a flower waiting to be plucked
But under the beautiful hues were a thousand thorns tucked
I took a chance and my fingers bled
But he still mocked coz it was misery to which I was wed
Never knew, the same flower, for my wreath, would come in use
For my pain and misery had become his muse
My heart cried out and my soul searched for reasons
For his conspiracy with destiny and their bitter treason
The clear stream of reason was lost that night
And I decided to give up on him, only this time, without a fight
The decision was taken but my mind was still craving for rest
A final kiss of poison but the bargain was far from best
His name, for some last trace of affection, I wanted to shield
But I’m tired of this chase and therefore, his name LIFE, today I yield……………


Suchita……..

the truth about life

For him, the summers were always a bit too hot
But please, on ice, put his body not
The warmth of his existence could melt all icea
But today, his body is going cold and it doesn’t feel nice
To somebody who taught me how to not just exist, but live
A few more years as a gift, god couldn’t give
But at least, for him, now there is no pain
Even though for me, it’s a complete loss, no gain
Back then, every morning, he would wake me up with his favorite song
Hated to get up early, but how much today, for it, I long
I wish I could get just one chance
So that I could play his favorite song and start a never-ending dance
I wish I could kiss him just once more
And receive in return, the usual four
I know, my marriage, he wanted to see
But I promise to give my kids, the values he gave me
Today, the heavens shall rejoice
Because the gods have made their best possible choice
But god, please to my request, pay heed
Let a part of him be with me, whenever I need
It’s a futile attempt to as much as try not to cry
And so I place my head at your feet and say my final goodbye…. …

Yours lovingly,Manu