A Suicide Note

I loved him a lot but the affection was clearly not mutual
And every time I tried, his retreat was brutal
His complex nature confused me but I played along
Still he destroyed my dreams unfailingly with his bitter song
A virtual paradise, for us, I had built
But he stomped on it, with his toxic intentions, without guilt
Determined I was coz optimism was my strength
But that notion was broken with his indifference for a period of infinite length
On the surface, he looked like a flower waiting to be plucked
But under the beautiful hues were a thousand thorns tucked
I took a chance and my fingers bled
But he still mocked coz it was misery to which I was wed
Never knew, the same flower, for my wreath, would come in use
For my pain and misery had become his muse
My heart cried out and my soul searched for reasons
For his conspiracy with destiny and their bitter treason
The clear stream of reason was lost that night
And I decided to give up on him, only this time, without a fight
The decision was taken but my mind was still craving for rest
A final kiss of poison but the bargain was far from best
His name, for some last trace of affection, I wanted to shield
But I’m tired of this chase and therefore, his name LIFE, today I yield……………


Suchita……..