I wish I - (get) take out -ample time to appreciate what I have now than to think about the possibilities once its no longer possible...I wish I could maintain all relationships I start...I haven't spoken to you in a while but flashes of years spent with you in school cloud my memory and eyes this evening...rest in peace Sandy...you'll be an instant hit in heaven -i'm sure of that..

Moments that matter

It’s not a question about the life in moments or the moments in life

It’s the perspective both offer – of victories, failures and for the most part - strife

Pray that time stops just for a bit for me to take a step back and pause

And string the perspectives together to piece life with all its ironies and flaws

So I pause to sense and feel each moment, collect, ponder and reflect

 It turns out to be a straightforward story; our choices imparting the special effect

The clichéd distinction between needs and wants; the classic race to an undefined end

With family gunning for a bronze and relationships giving up the first spot without contend

The selfish and not so selfish range of choices made for oneself and sold as good for all

Unknowingly getting too big to feel pain and nurturing the inability to see and sense the small

Cried numerous times in pain and suffering; but have also seen and felt tears of joy

Stayed alone for years; but appreciated the songs of love, that otherwise annoy

Time at times takes me back to relationships shared and broken; also ignored and let fall

Conclusion irrespective, better experienced and failed than not to have experienced at all

Fail I will again, but may only the brevity of life defeat me not my inability to experience; to laugh and cry

Promising to love and cherish everything I have than to think about what 'could be' after saying goodbye

Suchita...